Have I peaked?

Its about year back that i made up my mind to start doing some physical exercise. Its funny, you have to convince your MIND to better your body. Sure this decision was not made on January 1st, new year hype. Most make a decision to Eat Less, Exercise More, Spend Less and Save More on 1st of the year and by the end of year they realize (if at all they do) – they saved nothing, spent it all, exercised a little and ate until there’s nothing left at all. So month of August, I decided, I’m going to workout for 15-20 mins, 3-4 times a week.  I remember wise man once throw a challenge – “Would you survive, if you had 23 hours and 30 mins in a day” – If yes is your answer than use 30 mins for working out. Sure I run busy, but I can carve out time if I want to. And I did and its been an exciting ride.

Few months of consistency and you get hooked to the habit. Good thing, its a good hook working out. And sure enough what you do in the gym, the fight, the overcoming, impacts your whole life. When you first lift the weight, you decide what’s an optimal weight you can handle. That sets your LIMIT. That limit sometimes is so difficult to challenge. You make progress, lift more weight, reach a certain level but so many times we as human race wrongly accept that we have peaked.

This question “Have I Peaked” is for human race, not for animals and plants. Animals never know their limits, plants neither. Its our race that has the power to define itself. Some of us have a powerful definition for ourselves, while most fail to define themselves. They never get to know themselves, forget about them trying to explain themselves to others. And those that do tend to define themselves, have this intellectual limitations set on who they can be, what they can be, what’s the best they can do and what’s the best they can make. Once defined, human tends to live within those self defined boundaries.

Now why did I write this whole story – I am myself fighting, I don’t want to accept I have peaked. When I started I could barely push myself to 100lbs on squat, I worked my way upto 170lbs by incrementing 5lbs everytime I lift. But past few weeks, my body failed to lift any extra, not because human body cant handle that weight but its the mind that sets the limitation. I’ve seem many lift way more than what I am trying to handle. But the thing that works in my favor, I am smart enough to know I have NOT peaked and dumb enough not to know what’s my PEAK. I will continue the journey, maybe repeat the same task over and over, lift the same weight few times before moving on to heavier one but move on I will for sure. That thrill of trying to find your best self is the finest journey one can ever take,

And its not just in lifting weight, but everywhere in life. Too many assume too soon that they have peaked and they never tap into their best potential. Yes there are enough stories written, but the best one is yet to be written, great music composed but best has yet to be composed, huge business teams built, but the best is yet to be built, Till the time you keep challenging your peak performance, you will realize you have so much to offer to this world rather than laying, smiling & THINKING you have given your best, yet KNOWING you have so much more to offer.

Probably i’ll share another story how I overcome this light weight of 180lb which my mind says is the PEAK and share with you the next time my mind reaches “Its PEAK” again. I know that I am far from peaking out in other areas of my life, I can do better financially, spiritually, in my relationships, in giving, caring, loving, I know I have much more to do.

Don’t get PEAKED out, you have much more to offer!!

2 Years …

Its been 2 years since the world announced that we be with each other  – its funny we need legal papers to be accepted in society, i need a marriage certificate to prove my marriage, i need a birth certificate to prove i was born – what if i misplace my birth certificate, i can never prove who i am? Scary . . . So when one dies, do they bury the birth certificate as well, or maybe replace it with death certificate, does one get a CHOICE of what fonts, text color goes on death certificate!!

Anyways, its 2 years (Officially) but we been together much longer than that. Though each day with you is special, full of anticipation, an anniversary in itself, but Anniversary is one of those rituals that brings refreshment. Many a time its a new start, new promises, more energy, looking forward in anticipation and much more. Every 31st Dec, so many feel refreshed, awaiting for it to be the dawn of new year. New Year, New Beginnings is what its termed as & that’s what i feel anniversary does. Its a new year to the same relationship and with every passing year as the human grows older & wiser (hopefully!) and so does the relationship – closer & happier (hopefully!).

Its been a great 2 year journey with you, a journey that I want to continue, a journey that is happy, never ending, a journey that keeps bringing us closer. In these past 2 years, there’s never been a dull moment, yes we have worked hard (I can do more I feel), yes we have been partners in crime, yes you have supported me for my stupid decisions (Thank you, continue doing so!), yes you have been awesome, yes I have been silly sometimes (read most of the times), yes you have been crazy wife (I like you that way), yes we share a great chemistry, yes we have a deeper bond, yes we have travelled places together, yes we have missed each other during solo business trips, yes you are my precious wife but the best is that I can not only call you my wife, but I have you as my girlfriend, my pride, my friend, my first mastermind and my precious possession.

I know you are quite familiar with next few lines, will wait for THE MOMENT to read it out loud – and that moment is coming soon, but for now, here’s it for you:

If not for you
Winter would have no spring
Couldn’t hear the robin sing
I just wouldn’t have a clue
If not for you…

Live life on the Edge

10 Its more than 2 years, we live so close to Smokey Mountains, yet it took a business hangout to get us to visit this amazing place. Its amazing how priorities can help you structure your life better versus running around and missing the major things while chasing the everyday mundane fun.

Think of Smokey’s and you think of water rafting. Everytime there’s an element of “UNKNOWN”, its adventurous – how’s the water current going to be, what if the raft turns over, will we be able to paddle through the current, all this makes a perfect recipe for fun & adventure. And the calming thought was – Many have done it AND we have a GUIDE. So lets jump into the raft. Before jumping in, the guides gives us 3 INSTRUCTIONS. In my mind, I felt I don’t need those instructions. We’ll be fine, but still just heard what he had to say.

You get into the water and moment your raft starts floating, you know you are in the unknown terrain and this fun ride could very well be a lasting experience. And for me it sure was. It was fun to sit in the front and lead, love that feeling when you face everything first, you have no cover, its just more thrilling.

The raft floats, we laugh, we giggle but first strong current and the water sucked me into the stream. And that’s when you know, if I panic, I lose it, if I stay calm, there are enough options. Isn’t that a good lesson for life, whether in water or lively everyday life? Sure, I stayed calm and then those 3 INSTRUCTIONS of the guide race through my mind; Thank God, I heard them though I didn’t want to – “Stay Clam, Don’t stand up, Flow with the water & the nearest raft will rescue you”. Most times we don’t want to take instructions, but it always come handy. Think of instructions as someone’s experience and your ego will never come in the way to accept it.

It was just 10 seconds and my guide pulled me back up into the raft. 10 Seconds of not knowing what next could happen is like years of walking in dark room, not knowing what hits you next. Moment I was back in the raft, I had this calming feeling, I am back in my territory, I’m safe. And I felt that much more confident, once you face the danger & survive, you feel more confident to face the journey, knowing that you know what worst could happen and how to live through it.

It doesn’t stop there, we have another hours or more to go in this rafting journey. We put our paddles in the water, we stroke, we move forward, sometimes we just flow with the water. And while everything seems calm, next big current and for God knows what reason, I am back in the water out of my raft. And moment I fell back in water, I knew this is not going to be 10 seconds with the water current being rapid and I could see my raft float far ahead. Stay Calm, Don’t stand up in flowing water, the nearest raft will rescue you, were the only thoughts I had. AND I don’t see no raft near me. I wanted to grab hold of a rock and sit on it, but water kept me floating away and forward. Do I have to finish the whole journey floating? Will I be rescued, what if I hit a rock hard, will my body be bruised with water current washing me with it. So many thoughts racing, but there’s always this overriding thought – “I’ll be fine”. And sure I was, water flow got little calmer and a raft picked me up and before I know I was traded back to my raft.

Good to be back with my mates, and one of them being my wife. I cant leave her and go, maybe I tested every danger to know how secure she is. Back on the raft, 2 dips in water, I know I can face anything now. I had this over bearing confidence, I can go in for the third time. And then you wonder what others might think, I could hear few laughs, some laughed too hard, but who cares, I’ve visited a territory that many may never visit and they might never know the complete deal of rafting.

Rest of the ride was smooth, no more falling off the raft, no more facing the water alone. Kept thinking, what’s it with me, to be pulled into water everytime. Maybe water God’s really like me. It was fun anyways, never easy to fumble and stand up, but everytime you stand up, you are better you. Though I am strong, I know I am weak, I am human.

And finally out of water, out of raft, we rush to see the pictures and I look at my pictures. There it was. I was sitting too much on the edge of the raft. Maybe that’s who I am, like to live life on the edge. I like to sit on the edge of my chair while I learn from a master, life is worth living on the edge, that’s what makes you cutting edge? Maybe! I am happy I was sitting on the edge of the raft, experienced what many may never. And happy I’m alive, maybe next time living on edge is good but not while rafting — maybe!