And so I wanted to make sure my watch, old yet favorite – its funny how some old stuff is so close to your heart, sometimes the older it is more connected or should I say comfortable you are with it – does not break when I go out today to play for my team at work, you don’t want to play volleyball with your watch on, unless you want to break it. So while different thought run in my mind, what position should I play, isn’t it too hot, I mean 92 degree to play outdoors, I still carefully take off my watch and there I found out, I broke it. And I did it, no volleyball, but me.
Its that moment when you want to go back 5 seconds and save stuff. And then you smile, because you know, it was just a THING. And the bond is broken, the space is freed out so that something new can come in. A thing is a thing and can be replaced by another thing.
I wish though, relationships worked that way. You unguard your heart and let some people walk in. You develop that bond. But when some choose to move on, you wish it could be replaced, the gap could be filled in. But it does never happen that way. And its easy to wear a smile when your favorite thing breaks but worst when you have to wear a smile when you hurt within for a broken relationship so that the one who hurt you doesn’t know and the outside world doesn’t come to know, but your inside still knows. But hey, that how life is suppose to be lived – with unguarded heart. Use things, love people even though people hurt not things…
Enough of this heavy stuff, for now, I’m excited to buy a new watch. And I think I love Rolex, don’t know why!!